Yup, by the skin of my teeth. I will do much better next quarter.

Jane Roberts as Seth,
SESSION 674, JULY 2, 1973,
9:23 P.M. MONDAY

"Affirmation means acceptance of your own miraculous complexity. It means saying "yes" to your own being. It means acquiescing to your reality as a spirit in flesh. Within the framework of your own complexity, you have the right to say "no" to certain situations, to express your desires, to communicate your feelings.

"If you do so, then in the great flow and sweep of your eternal reality there will be an overall current of love and creativity that carries you. Affirmation is the acceptance of yourself in your present as the person that you are. Within that acceptance you may find qualities that you wish you did not have, or habits that annoy you. You must not expect to be "perfect." As mentioned earlier, your ideas of perfection mean a state of fulfillment beyond which there is no future growth, and no such state exists. (See the 626th session in Chapter Five, for instance.)
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"Affirmation is in the spontaneous motion of the body as it dances. Many churchgoers who consider themselves quite religious do not understand the nature of love or affirmation as much as some bar patrons, who celebrate the nature of their bodies and enjoy the spontaneous transcendence as they let themselves go with the motion of their beings.
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"In the Sermon on the Mount, the phrase (to the effect that) ". . . the meek shall inherit the earth" (Matthew 5:5), has been grossly misinterpreted.

"Christ meant, "You form your own reality. Those who think thoughts of peace will find themselves safe from war and dissension. They will be untouched by it. They will escape, and indeed inherit the earth."


"Thoughts of peace, particularly in the middle of chaos, take great energy. People who can ignore the physical evidence of wars and purposely think thoughts of peace will triumph but in your terminology the word "meek" has come to mean spineless, inadequate, lacking energy. In Christ's time, the phrase about the meek inheriting the earth implied the energetic use of affirmation, of love and peace."

So I am having trouble at the sites. How much of this is me not being able to work in this type of environment and how much of this is me learning in my own way and rhythm? People in the business (doctors and nurses) have told me to not let them make me quit. They have advised me to keep soldiering on. This may be the one thing I'll be grasping onto now. Needless to say I have been having my own doubts. I still see myself at the end of the summer picnic, maybe. This is odd. On a bicycle none the less. This would be a very welcome message.

Wow, I haven't been here for a really long time. It is like shifting back to a previous incarnation almost. Well, maybe not that extreme. I am almost finished with my third quarter of school. I'd like to say it is going well, but it hasn't. The school part is fine but my time in practice at the sites has been a great challenge. I don't know whether I will be able to finish this. In any case I am going to try. I get plenty of feedback from those who know me and they invariably are wholeheartedly behind me. To a person they tell me to not give up. So here I go trying to make a good impression in the last three weeks.

I don't know whether I will get through this. My sight is limited. It is almost as if another me has to show up and continue this through. I wonder whether the saying that, "nothing worth doing is easy" is really true? It is quite painful right now screams the pot in the kiln.