My head hurts. I don't usually get headaches but all the turbulence at work today and the reproductive test (why didn't we have a lab for this section?) we just took are both killing me. Boss man sort of freaked out about a property I have a problem parking at. Randy had to almost jump in front of this pushy woman who was determined to get the spot once boss man pulled his truck out. I had to go through it, get all the weeds (which have grown a lot in the last week or two), and make it look nice. That means you can really notice them now. I then had to race to another property I had been telling them about for over a month. Because of a mix-up between iron and a preemergent grass killer, I had to remove some turf today. This wasn't an emergency for weeks but today it is. I didn't get much else done.

And then there was the test; estrogen, progesterone, testosterone, follicle stimulating hormone, luteinizing hormone, prolactin, interstitial cells, cowper's gland, seminal vesicles, granulosa cells...aaggh. I don't think I can start looking at the prior tests tonight. My brain is fried and it isn't even 8:30. Ya know, I keep saying this, but I hope this all works out. I'm not getting much on this. I am tired of doing all this on my own though, that much I can confess. And there is the rub, there is no one to confess to. Boy, I start whining when my head hurts. And trying to piece it together intellectually crosses even more wires. I'll try the trick where I'll open a book at any (random) page to see what it says;

      "The psyche, always in a state of becoming, obviously has no precise boundaries. The existence of one, again, implies the existence of all, and so any one given psyche comes into prominence also because of the existence of the others upon which its reality rides. One television station exists in the same manner, for if one could not be tuned in to, theoretically speaking, none could.

      "These inner communications, then, reach outward in all directions. Each identity has eternal validity within the psyche's greater reality. At one level, then (underlined), any person contacting his or her own psyche can theoretically (underlined) contact any other psyche. Life implies death and death implies life - that is, in the terms of your world. In those terms life is a spoken element, while death is the unspoken but still-present 'beneath,' upon which life rides. Both are equally present.

      "To obtain knowledge consciously other than that usually available, you pay attention to the pauses, to the implied elements in language, to any felt or sensed quality upon which the recognizable experiences of life reside. There are all kinds of information available to you, but it must still be perceived through your own focus or identity.

      "I have said that all events occur at once - a difficult statement to understand. All identities occur at once also. Each event changes every other. Present ones alter past ones. Any one event implies the existence of probable events which do not 'emerge,' which are not 'spoken.'Physical world events therefore rest upon the existence of implied probable events. Different languages use sounds in their own peculiar manners, with their own rhythms, one emphasizing what the other ignores. Other probabilities, therefore, emphasize events that are only implied (as pauses) in your reality, so that your physical events become the implied probable ones upon which other worlds reside."

-Jane Roberts and Seth, The Nature of the Psyche, pp.112-113.